Becoming a Mom

When I became a Mom my life changed completely… For the good. My son has become my number one priority. He is the love of my life and I wouldn’t change it for the world. Everything I do Everything I have become is because of him. The onlllly problem is now I always seem to feel guilty about doing anything for myself. I know that I shouldn’t but I do. Most of the things I buy or I do is for him. He is by my side 24/7. Every time I leave him I almost start crying it’s like separation anxiety. I completely stopped doing most of the stuff I loved because of the guilt. But again it is all worth it I get to be his mom. When I do the things that I love without him I feel guilty. When I go out anywhere without him I feel guilty. God forbid I do anything for myself without feeling this way.

This feeling though of having a child. Of seeing him grow, feeling his heart beating. He’s mine! I’m his! His smile just lights up any room all I do is smile right back. When he does something he’s not supposed to and then smiles it’s soooo hard not to smile back. All I want is him to grow up and be as happy as he makes me. I want the world for him and I will teach him how to love and how to make anybody happy. When he’s sad I want him to know he can come to me anytime any day with any questions. Or even if he just wants a shoulder to cry on.

 

I’m His Mom!

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  1. I used to be exactly like that. Now my oldest is 12, and I’m not sure where things changed. I think it was very gradual, but now I delight in doing things for myself. It’s false guilt when I do have it because I’ve learned the hard way that I have to fill up my pitcher in order to pour into my children, but now that I think of it, I do occasionally still struggle with this. Motherhood is weird!

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